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Wednesday, July 17th, 2002
3:29 pm	"i can't help my laughter as they cry ... my soul brings tears to angelic eyes..." finally i'm updating this journal ... i havent really had computer access in the last few days so ... what're ya gonna do? anyway i've been having fun down here, seeing family, friends, etc. i've seen a shitload of chris, which is a good thing ... i stayed over his house a few nights. anyway, as usual, time flies when you're seeing people you care about, so my visit is about half way over, and i'll be back in philly soon. i just read courtney's journal, and i'm very jealous that she and kate saw kelly osbourne ... i think if courtney gets a job @ shoprite she'll become part of that whole shop-squad deal and i won't know what shes talking about half the time, like when she's discussing the prices of various vegetables and such ... maybe i'm just jealous. probably. but maybe thats not a problem anyway, since i'm defenitely living with her now. how exciting, to get outta my house and (kinda) be on my own. anyway, courtney, if you're reading this, AS SOON AS i get back to philly, i have to take the shit of my walls and finish packing, and then i'm moving in, if you still want me to. well i guess thats all for now, peace. oh, but PS: hopefully, soon i will be changing my user-name, as my mom has been reading my journal and getting pissed off at the stuff about her. i'll let you all know ... Current Mood: happy Current Music: AFI - God called in sick today (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 6th, 2002
12:25 am	You don’t do it on purpose but you make me shake now I count the hours ‘til you wake. the past few days seem like a blur, cause once they're over they're immediately lost and forgotten. all i can remember is that i went to the park with courtney and we met kenny john some people. kenny smashed a doughtnut in my face! only in good fun, although i threw it right back at him. i've barely talked to kate at all the past like week, where is she? i called her wednesday and asked if she wanted to hang out that night, and she said she'd call back but i guess she forgot? i don't think she believed me when i said i'd been trying to call her. anyway, i miss her. sean hasn't called all week like he was sposed to, so i guess that means i won't be seeing him before we leave tomorrow. whatever. that thing has kinda been dragging along (not cause of me) and i didn't think it was going anywhere anymore, but it still kinda sucks cause i like(d) him ... we're leaving tomorrow morning for arkansas. interesting. much love all - see you all in a few weeks. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: something corporate - (hurricane) the formal weather pattern (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 3rd, 2002
12:47 am	<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 !!!! Take the Which Powerpuff Girl Are You? Test. i'm seeing the movie tomorrow! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 2nd, 2002
3:44 am	or i could be crazy and sing about memories ... today i hung around my house, and then me courtney and megan went downtown ... heart. we got mad chinese food, mmmmmmm ... then we went to see kenny ben and some people at the last drop (best coffee place ever!). it was a chillin night ... all in all, a good time was has by all ... right now we're at courtney's watching the flinstones ... ehhh, i'm not really a fan. sometimes i feel a little weird, but it's ok. that happens often ... ok, pizzeace! Current Mood: nauseated Current Music: jimi hendrix - are you experienced? (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 30th, 2002
4:33 pm	not a good day ... so my day started off this way from the second i woke up. sean called and said that his car is effed up, so he cant pick me up so i can hang out with him at the shore (he's already there). then i had to go to a driving lesson, during which i made like 100 mistakes. then i convinced mom to let me go to warrior to get my ring changed, and while i was looking for a place to park, i accidentally drove over some glass, and she was really pissed. then inside warrior, she got all weird. as we got home shes like (suspiciously) "How did you find that place?" ... i told her some people i know got piercings there. "They had S&M stuff there," she says. No, actually it was just some scandalous clothing and she had to get all lame, old, and weird and have a problem with it. too bad, cuz she really can't tell me what to do anymore. i am so glad to be peacing the fuck out soon. now i have to go to work till 12, i told you it was gonna be a bad day ... Current Mood: blah Current Music: nothing. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 27th, 2002
6:19 pm	yee-haw courtney was bleaching my hair: COURTNEY: your hair's being gay. ME: how's it being gay? is it coming out? i didn't even mean it that way. we are so totally awesome. will my hair ever bleach the right way? now for more porn ... Current Mood: worried Current Music: nothing. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
12:17 pm	sorta cracked out? kinda cracked out lately. tuesday night me and courtney went to ben robbins' house and it was cracked out. but we all really had a good time, there were a few people there, and we were all talking and whatnot ... then we went to the park and were chillin ... nice. me and courtney left and went home at like 12-ish ... we saw kent on the el, heart. we were kinda cracked out on the way home, after not eating since like 1 and whatnot ... last night i went to eat and to see bourne identity with nick, it was pretty cool, and hes a chillin guy, he gets a heart. we picked up courtney on the way home and got home at like 1:15 ... kate was here, already asleep, so we woke her up, and we had a little drink, and all walked to wawa ... it was cool. tonight hopefully i'm doing something with sean?? i miss him, i feel like i haven't seen him in forever, and i really haven't. whats going on?? more later! Current Mood: good Current Music: some crap on t.v. (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 24th, 2002
10:47 am	today it's gonna be mother hot ... i have to take my grandma and brother downtown to see my mom at work. wtf?? my brother is annoying the hell out of me ... will i make it through the day?? let's hope so ... as long as i don't pass out from the heat, i guess i'll be alright. i had to get some shots today at the doc :( it's kate's 18th birthday, which i'd write more about, but she might read this so ... my fam is playing christmas songs on the piano and singing along. what the fuck. what the fuck. shit, this week is gonna be outta control ... courtney's getting us tickets for the smokin grooves concert ... sweet. lauryn hill, the roots, outkast, and jurassic 5. its totally sweet and awesome. i just found out that there was a deadline for housing info. to be sent to temple, and i missed it. if i don't get housing there, i'm fucked. seriously. i dont know what the hell i'd do. i NEED to get a room. why am i so unorganized?? i really wanna deck my bro right now ... more later. Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: nothing. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 23rd, 2002
2:55 pm	I could be the one who's dragged home at night away from all my hopeless dreams This nymph, to the destruction of mankind, Nourished two locks which graceful hung behind In equal curls, and well conspired to deck With shining ringlets the smooth ivory neck. Love in these labyrinths his slaves detain, And mighty hearts are held in slender chains. With hairy springes we the birds betray, Slight lines of hair surprise the finny prey, Fair tresses man's imperial race ensnare, And beauty draws us with a single hair. such a busy last few days: thursday: graduation, then out to eat (mexican food) with mom mamaw sam. then to taney with kate, and then to maggie's, where we met up with kenny sang j.d. kyle and all the rest of em. then at like 3-ish we were on our way back to kenny's, but me and kate went to ben robbins' instead and stayed up all night watching Almost Famous and Rockers. friday: left ben's at 7 a.m. went to little pete's, for breakfast. went to kate's and slept for like 3 hours. went home. showered, dressed, etc, got picked up by dad grandmom and grandad. went to temple, walked around, showed em everything. went to dad's in NJ, went out to eat (italian food). went back to dad's, stayed up watching a movie. saturday: got up at 7 to go eat with grandad and grandmom b4 their flight left (cracker barrel, southern cooking). went to like 4 flea markets on the way back to dad's. got back, slept for like 2 hours. woke up, listened to music, watched this thing on charles manson. dad took us home at 3. got home at 4. got dressed, went to work. got home from work at 12:15. ate. called sean, talked for like 1.5 hours. went to sleep. today, sunday: woke up at 11, because noah called to ask about seeing a movie. interesting. ate breakfast. i'm about to shower, i'm working at 5 (to 12). overview for next few days: monday: spend time with mamaw, she leaves tues. make a cake for kate (its her 18th bday). tuesday: hang out with sean, maybe have courtney/kate sleep over. wednesday: go out to eat with this kid nick from work. have kate sleep over and do birthday thing. thursday: see movie with noah, maybe sleep over kenny's? friday: work. saturday: help dad and judy move into her new house. sunday: work. tuesday: work for a few hours. wednesday - friday: maybe go to shore? friday: work. i don't know what else so far, but kinda busy? july 6 we go to arkansas. i'm tired and hungry and bleeding. eww. Current Mood: lethargic Current Music: nightmare before christmas movie (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 22nd, 2002
1:55 pm	a song by neil young: PHILADELPHIA ------------ Sometimes I think that I know What love's all about And when I see the light I know I'll be all right. I've got my friends in the world, I had my friends When we were boys and girls And the secrets came unfurled. City of brotherly love Place I call home Don't turn your back on me I don't want to be alone Love lasts forever. Someone is talking to me, Calling my name Tell me I'm not to blame I won't be ashamed of love. Philadelphia, City of brotherly love. Brotherly love. Sometimes I think that I know What love's all about And when I see the light I know I'll be all right. Philadelphia. i really hate it when people challenge my ability to deal with change and then try to tell me how to do it, like i don't already know. these people obviously don't know shit about what i've been through ... tell me how to deal with change? i've become indifferent. i've been through so much change so far ... who the fuck do you think you're talking to? i know a lotta people don't understand what i'm talking about, when i say i've been through it, but that's because i don't advertise it ... i don't want people thinking that i'm looking for pity. i mean if someone asked me about it, then ok ... but i don't casually bring it up in conversation. before you start spouting out advice that you need to take yourself, to someone who probably knows more about it than you, who know you're talking to ... recognize. i'm serious. that's something that i really can't deal with. don't try to make nostalgia something bad ... the reason you don't understand it is because you're bitter and you haven't allowed yourself to get over things and actually enjoy anything. and that really is a shame. i feel bad for you. because if there's anyone who can't deal woth change and loss, it's you. and you've proven that time and again. and "you" know who you are. i'm not going to bullshit, and act like high school wasn't a big part of my life. it's something that shaped me, and occurred during my teenage years, which are some of the most turbulent and crucial. and also to the person i'm referring to: fuck you. i'm done with you, because you assume that friendships will be over soon, and since you assume, you make it happen. kind of like that "if you think you're going to fail, you will" thing. good job for creating a lost cause. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: allman brothers - melissa (Comment on this)
Friday, June 21st, 2002
2:11 pm	graduation was yesterday and i'm feeling okay, except that every now and then i feel this kinda pang, cuz it's all over. looking back, i don't know how those few years passed by so quickly and i know that while they were happening i took them forgranted, but i know i'll always have memories, and i really hope i still see some people... i really can't put it into words. i didn't really think i'd care, but i don't see how anyone could not give a shit at all...ya know? last night we were @ maggie's and we were watchin the CBN senior farewell, which i didnt get to see in school, and how crazy? everyone in freshman year, looking like children... Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 19th, 2002
1:07 pm	"this is the last of my letters until i see you again..." so today was my official last day at school ever. good in ways, but also strange feeling. although i've really hated school this past year, it was a place that shaped me ... i am who am i because of my interactions with these people, whether i liked some of them or not. these are the people i've been with for the last 3/4 years of my life, the years that are "the best" of your life. although i've grown kind of accustomed to change, it still seems so overwhelming. i don't want to grow up and i don't want to be on my own in the "real world," because it can really be a vacant, scary place. as lame and turbulent as the past few years have been, there have been some really good times that i won't forget. i don't know what else to say. Current Mood: nostalgic Current Music: alkaline trio - you've got so far to go (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 18th, 2002
9:08 pm	The magic bullet theory: by Texas is the Reason "It´s all about a secret I have or kept or stole from you. It´s all about not knowing if I missed out something new. You only know what I know. I never meant to keep it in the dark I know it doesn´t mean much coming from me. You want to laugh like they laugh? Go ahead and laugh your face off, faker. Just make sure to leave me home. This is all about a secret I have." i have had the busiest day. at like 5:45 i woke up, and took chris to the airport on the train ... didn't get home till 11:15, and i had to shower and get dressed right away for courtney's graduation. i was downtown around the kimmel center by 1:00, and i saw kenny for like 15 minutes, nice, because i've barely seen him at all lately. then was courtney's grad., which lasted from 2 - like 5:15, how ridiculous?, but nice anyway. then i went out to eat with her and her family, at this chinese food place, then went to her house for a while, and got home at 8-ish, which brings me here... i feel lonely now that chris left, which i expected, since i felt the same way last time. how empty. patsy's leaving today too. how strange. i'd almost say i'm glad but still, it's change, and she's been here for so long. but i guess that's how things are. mamaw (southern for grandmom) is getting in tomorrow afternoon. and so are grandmom and grandad, obviously, for graduation, which is thursday. so mixed up. i'm so mixed up. Current Mood: tired Current Music: radio (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 15th, 2002
3:20 pm	meep <td bgcolor="green"> You Are Tangerine You are a beautiful person, in a wistful kind of way. If you could, you would spend all your time daydreaming and writing poetry. You are a tragic beauty. You are sensitive and caring, and you don't take insults well. You don't smile much, but when you do, you really mean it. People like to be around you because you are a calming influence. You have an appreciation for all things beautiful, and you probably have some potted plants. You also most likely own a cat. You like Sundays and hot tea. You will spend your entire life yearning for quiet beauty, which is a rarity in this world, so you read a lot. Everyone you know thinks you're "nice." Take the Which Led Zeppelin Song Are You? Quiz that song gets the biggest heart ever. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, June 14th, 2002
1:56 pm	totally pointless and the result of boredom APPEARANCE hair – a freakin mess right now eyes -- greenish height -- 5'7 figure – average STYLE clothing – t-shirts, tank tops, jeans, cords, flip-flops, chucks music – bands: alkaline trio, saves the day, the get-up kids, the juliana theory, lately the anniversary make up: if I wear it… lotion, concealer, chap-stick bodyart: 3 holes in each ear (including one at the top), belly button piercing RIGHT NOW wearing- a t-shirt, grey PJ pants thinking of: graduating, i have to work tonight, not cool LAST THING YOU... bought – coffee did – copied this surey from this girls LJ ate & drank: coffee and a bagel read: hmm...adbusters magazine watched on tv – goonies EITHER / OR club or houseparty: houseparty tea or coffee: coffee beer or cider: apple cider. drinks or shot: shots cats or dogs: cats single or taken: i dont know pen or pencil: pen gloves or mittens: gloves food or candy: food cassette or cd: cd unless we are talking about mix tapes. those are the best coke or pepsi: pepsi hard or mild alcohol: hard matches or a lighter: lighter Rickie lake or oprah winfrey: neither WHO DO YOU WANT TO... kill – im not down with killing hear from: sean get really wasted with – courtney tickle: chris look like: chloe sevigny be like – I’ll do. avoid – the rest of the world LAST PERSON YOU touched: chris talked to: patsy hugged: chris instant messaged: my mom kissed: sean who broke your heart – dan WHERE DO YOU eat: around...i dont know dance: hehe, when im alone in my room. cry – in bed, outside, somewhere hidden wish you were: anywhere but here HAVE YOU EVER... Dated one of your best friends? hell no, i know better Loved somebody so much it makes you cry? yes Done drugs? yes Broken the law? Yea, I guess. Ran away from home? Yes. Broken a bone? No. Cheated on a test? Yes. Who hasn’t? Skinny dipped? not technically Played Truth Or Dare? Yea. Flashed someone? Hehehe…. I guess so. Mooned Someone? No. Kissed someone you didn't know: no. Been on a talk show/Game show? No. Been in a fight? sure Ridden in a fire truck? No. Been on a plane? Yeah, a lot. Come close to dying? I’ve definitely thought so… Cheated on your Boy/Girlfriend? No. Gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride? of course Eaten a worm/mud pie? naaah Kissed Someone? yes. Swam in the ocean? oh Yes. Had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up? Yes. Quite a few times actually. WHAT IS... The most embarrassing CD in your collection? i really dont know Your bedroom like? a mess Your favorite thing for breakfast? a bagel Your favorite thing for lunch? whatever Your favorite thing for dinner? Mm… teriyaki. Your favorite Restaurant? as of now, the chinese place at 5th and south...best ever ARE YOU... A Vegetarian?: i'm working on it A Good Student?: i used to be Good At Sports?: hockey i guess A Good Singer?: hahahaha A good Actor/Actress? i've never really tried it out A deep sleeper?: sometimes A Good Dancer?: no. well, I have fun anyway. Shy?: yea, I can be. Outgoing?: when im around people I know pretty well A good storyteller -- i’m alright at it (Comment on this)
1:16 pm	today we were supposed to go get our yearbooks from school but i didn't because it sucks outside...now i really wish i had. why am i so lazy? its just not cool. i guess i just wanna be done with school, once and for all. ya know? oh well... me and chris are watching Goonies, one of the best movies ever. sweet. i have to work tonight from 5-12, fun, eh? some are so concerned with labels. how sad. Current Mood: hungry Current Music: goonies (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 12th, 2002
1:14 pm	just some things.. 'What kind of Wing are you?' by. Xera chris is here and i feel weird. not good. defenitely not. especially since i hung out with *someone* allll day yesterday, and i had so much fun doing nothing, but lounging outside for like, hours. maybe its the newness. or maybe i'm just crazy. bjork, heart: My Bjork Song is It's Oh So Quiet! </a> One of Bjork's songs to go mainstream, It's oh so quiet! You are a rollercoaster. You go from quiet to loud and around again. Everyone knows you, and you know them. Dude, you have practically no enemies! This test was created by Zid! Visit my Livejournal zidanime or my Deadjournal nexttolastsong Take the test HERE! thats all for now! bye! Current Mood: weird Current Music: air conditioning (Comment on this)
12:17 pm	just some quizzesssss Which Archangel are you? by Xera (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 11th, 2002
5:35 pm	MOM, THIS YOU CAN READ hi mom, i'm writing this from your office, and i thought i'd let you know that YOU ARE NOT A REAL MOTHER. how dare you criticize that line i wrote a few journals back, "I want a realy mommy." the fact that you are still doing this spying shit, even after you promised you'd stop, is DISGUSTING, and proves the fact that you're not a real mother. stop fucking spying on your kids. you wonder why you're not respected, and the reason is because you don't give any respect. to hell with you. Current Mood: numb (2 Comments |Comment on this)
1:04 am	uh...about that because i thought this picture was pretty, laura of mewing.net told me this: "you enjoy sitcoms, popcorn, horses, and perhaps surfboarding. you lost your virginity either very early (under the age of eleven) or very late (over the age of thirty). you take politics and religion very seriously, and when you were a kid, you had a penchant for getting lost in shopping malls and/or amusement parks. your favorite color is most likely blue or green, and you are terrified of spiders." whatever will laura tell you?? how did they know that im freakin scared of spiders? weird... Current Mood: sick Current Music: the fridge humming... (Comment on this)